New Land
When we came here, it felt
like promised land, but
lacking love: each place we
sank a spade returned our
effort push for shove. Dense
silt and rocks, a little
clay told us the way that
things had gone here. Ruined
soil still supporting life, but
not a place a farmer's
work returns a yield to
fill a family's need.
With gentle treatment,
understanding, year on
year we've labored hard
to mend the soil, found
our fruits, and watched the
trees in freedom sink
their roots. We sow
our seeds, receive the
rain; can this reverse the
curse of Cain? Can
we discover how our
home can be
transformed, the land
become our lover?
So it is between us. We've
found rocks under the
surface, felt what shocks
of history have
taken. Was our hope for
reciprocity and joy
mistaken? Go, now, if you
need an answer, to our
gardens. See what love
has done: soil, rich and
ready, seedlings reaching
for the sun!
like promised land, but
lacking love: each place we
sank a spade returned our
effort push for shove. Dense
silt and rocks, a little
clay told us the way that
things had gone here. Ruined
soil still supporting life, but
not a place a farmer's
work returns a yield to
fill a family's need.
With gentle treatment,
understanding, year on
year we've labored hard
to mend the soil, found
our fruits, and watched the
trees in freedom sink
their roots. We sow
our seeds, receive the
rain; can this reverse the
curse of Cain? Can
we discover how our
home can be
transformed, the land
become our lover?
So it is between us. We've
found rocks under the
surface, felt what shocks
of history have
taken. Was our hope for
reciprocity and joy
mistaken? Go, now, if you
need an answer, to our
gardens. See what love
has done: soil, rich and
ready, seedlings reaching
for the sun!
I've been thinking a lot about life building and life living these days (yes, it was something being reflected upon in one of the many podcasts I listen in on throughout the more laborious tasks in my week - such good cleaning and dish washing accompaniment!). This person summed up so well something that I have often sensed, but hadn't found the words for: Jason and I have been very diligent and intentional and thoughtful life builders. I feel very excited and in awe of the life we have built - our amazing children, our beautiful home, our healing land, our deep friendships, our intentional and continual work on ourselves... But I often have an internal ache and longing to be better at living my life. I'm often focused so heavily on the active work of building (and maintaining) our life that I really struggle to settle myself and allow myself to be fully present to living my life. Maybe that can be the focus of our next 25 years?!
I've had a lot of fun looking back at pictures of our young (VERY young) selves. This first one was taken at our birthday celebration in 1997 at the children's home in Bolivia where we were volunteering. I am very focused on the candles...Jason not so much! This was BEFORE we were dating and BEFORE any conversations about our feelings for each other had been had with each other. When this photo was developed, I did wonder...
This next photo is late at night when we woke my parents up in August of 1998 to let them know we were engaged. We celebrated with a bedtime snack of funny cake pie!And then here's us 25 years ago on May 15, 1999! It was a beautiful sunny May day in Mt. Joy, Pennsylvania, not a cool and cloudy day like today in Keezletown. As I flipped through photos, I felt particularly grateful for the deep rooted relationships that I still enjoy today with people who were part of our circle all the way back then. And then I also marvel at the ways our lives have expanded and changed since that time to include so many others who have been part of who we have become since that day!
So that's the anniversary musings I've got for now. The girls are unpacking from a sleepover last night at Christen, Jonathan and Luca's (we left them there after our dinner together) and Jason is cooking up some fresh asparagus and some fish fillets from a friend. So here's some life building and living snippets from the last few weeks. It was two weeks full of the normal day to day stuff and also some bigger events: there were soccer practices and games, chicks are growing and we did our first chicken butchering of 2024, we celebrated some rainy days, there was Luca care times and Bear care times, Jason (and Kali) finished up a big Sassafras job, I attended a few CJP graduation events and we all attended a memorial service together, the older girls ushered at ASC, I had more doula meetings than I've had in a while and corresponded with some new families, Jason (and Kali) finished the first hay cutting and we mulched the potatoes all together, there were meals and games with family and friends, we got the summer gardens planted and the supply of aging cheddars is steadily increasing in the root cellar, I enjoyed walks with friends and we all celebrated Emily's graduation from her JMU grad degree together, AND THE MYERS-BENNER FAMILY DOG SAT!!!
Yes, you read that right! It's definitely one for the family history book and a first for us. Obie came to stay with us for 3+ days and it went great AND, thankfully, none of us are pining for a dog full-time. It seems we will be the kind of family more inclined to enjoy the dogs in our lives in smaller doses. But enjoy we did!! Obie seemed to enjoy his time with us too, soaking up the attention and enjoying the dog walking enthusiasts!
I don't think he slept as much as he normally would at home and one day he got to meet three other dogs and by evening seemed tuckered out. He was sitting on Alida's lap while we played a game and I looked over to see his eyes going shut and then his whole body started flopping over. We did enjoy some delightful nap snuggles!
He got to meet and "play" with Ezzie when Karen came out for a visit, but it was a supervised play date as Ezzie's love and enthusiasm was a little overwhelming for Obie at times!Lunch is ready so I will not tarry on the rest of this!
Terah helped Jason with the first chicken butchering and was impressed with the size differential between two of the roosters. With this small butchering we can RETIRE the heavy, bulky rooster condo for the time being. Yay!
We've had chilly soccer games worth snuggling up for and hot sunny ones! Alida plays goalie for 1/2 of most games which gives my nerves a workout!
The rain has been so great for getting plants established and I love rain washed flowers - these are from Nora's garden.
We did the first comfrey cut back right before the plants flopped! Timing can make all the difference sometimes on how long a task takes!
Mulching with freshly cut hay is so satisfying, especially when your hay twist gets this long!
While Jason and Kali joined the masses at the JMU graduation, Terah, Alida and I hung back to cook up a post-graduation feast to enjoy all together!
We've had chilly soccer games worth snuggling up for and hot sunny ones! Alida plays goalie for 1/2 of most games which gives my nerves a workout!
The rain has been so great for getting plants established and I love rain washed flowers - these are from Nora's garden.
We did the first comfrey cut back right before the plants flopped! Timing can make all the difference sometimes on how long a task takes!
Mulching with freshly cut hay is so satisfying, especially when your hay twist gets this long!
This is a RARE moment in our home where this vibrant, fun, creative, silly one is sitting still entertaining himself!
There was no sitting still during our snowball bush battle!!While Jason and Kali joined the masses at the JMU graduation, Terah, Alida and I hung back to cook up a post-graduation feast to enjoy all together!
We have had some DELIGHTFUL cool beautiful mornings! My favorite for working outside!!
This Monday family farm day was gorgeous and we were able to seed cantaloupe, okra, cucumbers, black-eyed peas, trombone, sunflowers and delicata. We also planted out the flowers, sweet potatoes, tomatoes, peppers and basil. In between things we weeded the struggling onions and I weeded the cute oat rows. No wonder we were tired yesterday! And it was such a full day that I hardly took any photos...Ok, there is gushing about the delicious fish so I'm going to go partake!