Nora's binky...

Last evening included a first for us. Two nights ago Alida was fussy for much of her aunts' visit - from about 6-9pm. I was very much hoping this wasn't a "new stage" we were entering and the jury is still out on that but last night included a repeat of the previous - though with me a bit less anxious about what was wrong with her since I almost expected we might face some evening fussiness, and it was so like the night before. Still anything but enjoyable, and I've already started to wonder how parents of colicky babies come out of the experience sane!

At one point yesterday Jason said, "maybe this girl is going to need a pacifier" as she had come out sucking - had a little red welt on her hand by the time she was 24 hours old from sucking. Well, we didn't get one at the hospital as we had said "no pacifier." Kali never used one and Nora didn't suck on one, though she found a lot of enjoyment in playing with one. For a moment I didn't think we had one - then we remembered that Nora had two - one is in her memory box and the other in the attic in our box of memorabilia and grief resources. So when the crying started in earnest last evening Jason rummaged through the attic and came down with Nora's binky. We were grateful for it - another one of those sweet sad moments to see Alida sucking on it - though mixed with a lot of relief for the quiet moments it provided.